The January Experiment Breakdown
Let me guess – one of the reasons you may be struggling to give up alcohol, or simply cut back, is because you think your life will be boring without it. I 100% did. Make that 1000%. Shitty little trick alcohol plays on us. I’ll let you in on a little secret – Life amps up when drinking is eliminated, so you’d better prepare accordingly.
My life has been on a one way train to freedom town since I quit drinking. None of its been easy, and I know of course it sounds cliché, but I’m rolling so far forward so fucking fast that I had to break down new activities, learnings, life lessons, experimentations, life, etc, into specific months so I could give each one proper time & attention. You guys, I’m not joking, like I had to actually sit down and plan out my next 12 months to be able to fit all this awesome shit in.
I started January with only 3 experiments – Yoga, Cold Showers & Smoking. Bad news is smoking has seemed to follow me into the month of Feb. Good news is turns out more experiences were waiting for me, one’s I would have been an idiot to turn down. Here’s a breakdown of each:
Yoga @ Yoga Santosha
Hands down the BEST move I’ve made for my mind & body in a long time. I was fucking t-ired. I had been pushing myself hard in the gym for the past 2 years, and I needed a break. At the time I was giving up alcohol, working out at the pace I was going actually helped save me. Getting up early, working out with amazing, strong women – it all had its time & place. But leading up to Christmas this year, I was fried emotionally & physically. Yoga was a way back into balancing myself. And I fell in love. Hard. The classes offered are amazing – one week I was laying on the floor, covered in a blanket, listening to the instructor play her crystal bowls, the next I was suspended off 2 ropes on a wall, stretching. It was insane. It also brought me back to playing and having fun, like I did when I was a kid. Already renewed my pass for February – not letting this beauty pass me by.
Ughhhhh, why??? I’ll tell you why, because although they are fucking horrendous in the moment, they are actually really good for us, especially women. I think with the exception of maybe 5 days out of this month, I finished my shower with 15 – 20 seconds of cold. And yes, I realize that I have to start upping that this month, so I have made a promise to myself to try for 25 – 30 seconds. I tried this mostly because I am cold -All.The.Time.- and I read that cold showers were supposed to help with that. Here are some other benefits of cold showering (from Caitlyn Howe – fierce female):
Supports the lymphatic system – This is the biggest point I can attest to. The last thing I do before I step out of the shower is to raise my arms in the air and have the cold water drip down my arms/armpits. It actually feels ah-mazing.
Increases Circulation – See, I wasn’t lying
Elevates Mood – 50/50 on this one
Trains Mental Override – Agree 100% with this one
EMPOWERS YOU – Nothing wrong with a little of that
So, I will continue down this path of un-comfortableness into February because if it’s uncomfortable, it must be working. And I know most of you won’t believe me, so look into Wim Hof if you want more information because I’m sure he can do a hell of a lot better job explaining it than me.
The struggle is real my friends. Although I am down in daily cigarettes since Jan 1, it’s still not where I want to be. And I don’t want to write about this as I feel as though I am failing, but there’s a lesson here, there’s a reason why I am doing this. And until I get to the bottom of that, I’m not sure when the end will be. And of course it goes against my health conscious lifestyle, so there’s that. I’ve played around with many scenarios in my head – It’s my one “bad thing”, I’ve quit before and I will again, I’m still stuffing some trauma or emotion down, I’m using it as a distraction. Whatever it is, it's something that needs my time, energy & focus more than ever because it's time to go.
Here are a few new experiments added throughout the month:
I’m buzzing. I recently came across “The Universe Has Your Back” by Gabby Bernstein. I had been putting off reading this book because I didn’t totally jive with what I felt she represents. And although I'm still not sure I do, I decided to do one of her intention/manifesting practices and saw “my” sign. No shit. 2019 is the year I am beginning to build a new career & life passion, one I never thought I would find, and seeing "my" sign just solidified everything for me. And I don’t care if you think I’m talking BS, just like I’m sure she doesn’t give a shit, but to me, it’s all real, and I believe in the power of the Universe. More on that as it rolls into the coming months…
I go to the library. It’s my jam. And it’s free. Easy choice! Only problem is, when I put books on hold, they all seem to become available at once. That’s what happened this month. I think I had something like 8 books come up. So I read. A lot. The one book that stood out the most was “This Naked Mind – Control Alcohol” by Annie Grace. In it she talks about the conscious and unconscious mind as it relates to alcohol. Pretty interesting stuff. I also made it through “Own the Day, Own your Life” by Aubrey Marcus. He includes tons of good points when it comes to daily practices - one includes cold showers! Go to the library, it’s fucking awesome.
Taboo. Don’t talk about sex! Old news. Not talking about sex is what fucks most of us up. My mind and my body were out of connection for so long that I didn’t even know what I wanted, and had a lot of shame & guilt associated around that. And alcohol is a major no-no in this regard. If you’re numbing yourself with alcohol, how the hell do you expect to have real connection with someone. And real connection, a safe environment & a respectful partner is where it’s at. With all of this personal growth I’m doing, I added this element to begin repairing my mind/body connection. I found some awesome sexologists online that have helped me start to shed some of that guilt & shame & quite frankly numbness surrounding sex and myself.
Ok friends, I think that's it for the moment. Onto February and newer & bigger & better experiences and life lessons.